I was fortunate enough to have had this morning off and it was a blessing in disguise.
I ended up crashing and falling asleep on my sofa last night with Elvis and I spooning. His slow heavy breathing was hypnotizing and just sent me off to a gorgeous deep sleep.
I awoke at 11.00pm fucking wide-awake and berated myself for not waking up earlier. GRRRRR. I severely struggle with sleep I either fight to stay awake or fight not to sleep. If I have nanna naps then I am basically fucked as I can never get back to sleep.
You know I have heard that they have sleeping schools for newborn babies but I wonder if they have sleep schools for insomniac adults such as myself? I bloody need it. I love sleep. I love it more than I love food. I especially enjoy sleep when it’s a cold windy, rainy night, the noise just lulls me into the most luscious sleep.
So I sat up in bed and read my book from cover to cover and then lay in bed looking at the ceiling. Sleep came at about 4am and I awoke at 9 this morning.
I then raced around my local shopping centre paying bills and buying a present for Teija my work colleague who is leaving my work place and she is off to bigger and better things. Good luck Teija don’t forget us!
So tonight I finally planted my arse on the sofa and channel surfed and I came across a show called Malcolm in the middle. I have never watched this but what the fuck??? I don’t get this show at all and in fact it was downright fucking disturbing. Without offending any fans of the show but can this program be for real? It was trippier than munching on magic mushrooms!!!
Food wise, all is going well and I am feeling “full and content” but am still pushing myself to eat 6 small meals per day. Which is such a struggle for me. I never thought, never ever thought that I, Reney, me, Reney would ever struggle to eat. Its trippy shit man.
So as boring as this entry may be, its been a good day. So Tuesday is over with now bring on Wednesday!
Reney
P.S - I just wanted to send a shout out to the gorgeous Mel. Everything is going to be all right sweetie!
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Reney!
I am so sorry to hear about your insomnia. It sucks, huh?! I had it for quite some time for no apparent reason and thought I was going to go nuts!
I also just wanted to give you a high five for your blog entry on day 155 about the negatives of a blog. I received a comment today which goes to my email account for moderation before publication. It was quite nasty and vindictive and sent from an anonymous commenter. I havene't yet published a post on it but I will. I have written it but want to take some time to articulate my thoughts in a cohesive manner. I just wanted to let you know you're not alone ... there are some hateful people in the world. Your post just helped me realise not to take it personal - jealousy is flattery right?!
Here's to you and your amazing journey!
Insomnia totally sucks. I find I sleep better after I've done a killer workout...
I also received one of those delightful comments from an anonymous person who felt the need to comment on my weight loss... Gotta love those comments! Check out my blog, I responded ... hehehe Inspiration came from you! :)
Erika xx
Hello my lovelies,
Firstly Dee, here I lay in bed with my laptop in my lap and its 12.44am suffering another sleepless night. I thought I would go and read your blog and I have just spent the past hour reading it from start to finish.
Girl, you have blown me away! You look fucking amazing! You should be so proud of yourself, no really you should. You look absolutely radiant and stunning and I did a double take when I saw your before and after photos. Love the dress by the way! LOVE IT.
When I read about your nanna, I must say I had tears streaming down my face, you write so beautifully and it just touched me.
I've had this sleeping problem since I was a child and I have to say I am sort of used to it but it can leave you feeling nuts.
Thank you for the HIGH FIVE, but its very frustrating that there are cocksuckers out there who hate and bag on us out of pure jealously. I don’t understand people Dee I really don’t. We had this surgery to better ourselves yet people want to bring us down. For some reason they feel threatened by people succeeding. I receive snide comments and downright rude and distasteful emails and I refuse to publish them. Why? Because I think that these jealous knobs get some perverse pleasure out of all of this.
I TRY to turn negatives into positives and your last couple of comments are so right on JEALOUSLY = FLATTERY.
Thanks for reading my blog Dee I really do appreciate it and I have to say that after reading your entire blog in one sitting I think you are an amazing inspiration, an amazing writer and I look forward to your next blog entry.
YOU ROCK GIRL!!!
To the lovely Erika who is and was my first inspiration. YOU ROCK TOO! Sadly with my insomnia nothing helps I sadly just have to ride it through and this bout will last a few more days and then my body tells me its time to sleep and then that’s it, I’m out for a few days. I’m a strange creature...
I went straight across to your blog entry and I have to say that I am VERY impressed with your come back. Why are we forced to justify who we are as people and our actions to absolute complete strangers? Your last two paragraphs were killers and had me in hysterics. You tell the mole!!!!
We tell our stories, we put it out there and this is what we get back…its just not right.
Big Love to both of you
Reney
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