Day 151 – Ahhh fuck its Monday!!!

You would think after having a 3-day weekend I would be refreshed and full of energy and ready for work. Sadly that was not the case. The alarm shrieked at me at 6am and instead of getting up I hit the snooze button. I hate the shitiest night’s sleep, like OHMIGOD!! How hot was it in Melbourne last night? Holy mother of God! I tossed and turned for hours and then I awoke at 2am wrapped in my doona and dripping from perspiration. So I had to wake up and shower and change my sheets.

Fuck I really do hate Mondays. The phones went off, there were patients everywhere and at one stage it felt and looked like our waiting room was full. Then I blinked and it was home time. Yay!! Monday is over with.

On the food front I have stuck to 6 small meals today and everything went down well but I can still feel some restriction. Not as much as before but still restriction is very present. I need a further tweak or adjustment as I really do believe that another ½ ml needs to come out but if Sexy says I should try with the 3.5 mls I have in my 5ml band then I have to suck it up, be patient and just put up with it. Doc knows best I guess.

I have to say that eating 6 small meals per day isn’t exactly something that I like doing. I am not trying to starve myself, far from it, but I have had so much restriction from day 1 and I don’t really get hungry. I find it hard to force myself to eat every couple of hours. I hope this doesn’t sound weird but I feel like I am breaking my routine or my momentum with constantly having to remind myself that I should eat something. Back in the pre-band days I didn’t need an excuse or a reason to eat I just ate. How ironic is that? Ironic in the sense that once upon a time I had finished my lunch by morning tea time yet now I would love to just work through lunch and not have to eat. This band is fucking trippy shit, but its all good. Do other people struggle with food and having to force themselves to eat?

Enough about food then. I was planning on walking home from work tonight but thankfully I listened to my gut. She never lets me down. It pissed with rain this afternoon. See what I mean about sunny one minute and then pissing with rain the next? Ahhh Melbourne the most cosmopolitan town in this beautiful country of ours but weather that’s crap.

Bring on Tuesday!


Reney