Day 143 – 60 Minutes

As I mentioned yesterday my plans for Saturday were quashed and squashed and I basically read a lot and then went to bed nice and early. Days like yesterday are sort of reflective as in, is this what my life is going to be like when I enter the "Silver Rinse Brigade"?

It was a quiet day and one that was basically just me with my books & music for entertainment, my dog for some warmth and my thoughts as my friend. It sort of tripped me out a bit but in the same breath the peace was sorta nice. I sort of got lonely but the minute I found something else to read or put another CD on I distracted myself and forgot about feeling lonely.

I enjoy my own company I always have and I am sure I always will but I dunno yesterday was sort of weird. At one point I had to check when my monthly’s were due as I only get this sentimental (if we can even call it that) when its Danger Will Robinson time but no I was not hormonal.

I then thought to myself that I have someone in my life who wants to begin a one-on-one relationship with me and ManBoy has made that perfectly clear to me and who is perfect for me, he treats me as his equal, he is educated and VERY smart, he is funny, he is stylish (he always smells sooooo good) he is in tune with himself so why the fuck wont I just dive into this and commit myself to him? I thought about all that for a while and then shook my head almost to rid these silly thoughts out of my head. NOOOOOOO I cant and I wont go down that path, as things are good the way they are. Well for now anyway.

I woke up this morning bright and early and today’s plans were for me to attend The Melbourne Bandits gathering in Elwood. It was perfect weather for it as it was by the beach. I was planning to go with the gorgeous * Bee * (howz it goin’ luv?) and I was really looking forward to but instead I ended up going for coffee with Leah at the Organic Café.

So I spent the morning with Leah at the café and talked and talked and talked whilst sipping latte, after latte after latte. I then got Caffeine Head Fuzz which equates to feeling dehydrated and dizzy but it sorta was nice feeling that dizzy (hee hee) I then raced home and mum and I decided to go visit my Aunt G. We spent a couple of hours with her and my Uncle M. and it was great to catch up with them. My Aunty G. is one of the “normal” aunts in m y family. She has her idiosyncrasies (don’t we all) but her heart is in the right place.

Then I got to catch up with ManBoy who wanted to go and test drive the new Prius so out to Brighton we went. I want a Prius too!!! It had to be the smoothest and quietest ride I have ever been in and sooo spacious. At the lights or every time the car remained stationary it sounded like the engine had dies. It was just so peaceful. ManBoy went to re-start the engine it was nuts. That was fun and once again I want a Prius too!!!

I sat in front of the teli tonight eating dinner and eagerly watching 60 Minutes. It had a surgeon on tonight a Dr Russell Broadbent from Queensland who performs some radical weight loss surgery called “Bilio Pancreatic Diversion” or BPD. Which basically translates to removal or exclusion of ¾ of a person’s stomach along with a long intestinal bypass. So he cuts your stomach out and then attaches your intestine to the tiny pouch he has created and apparently he claims that this surgery reduces the absorption of the fat that you consume. You can apparently consume more food and you lose more weight with this surgery than any other and the only side affect is that if you overeat fatty, oily or highly processed foods then diarrhea hits you quicker than you can say shit I’ve shat my pants. Sounds good…but then again.

Now what I am about to say is just MY opinion. My opinion is just one persons view on something. I wont apologize for expressing what I am about to unleash as its JUST MY OPINION. I saw this 60 Minute interview and was gob smacked with what I saw and what I heard. This surgeon has apparently had 6 deaths in the past 12 months all due to this surgery.

This dickhead of a surgeon who came across as extremely arrogant and appeared to me to have an extraordinary amount of over confidence, claims that his patients had died of septicemia and infection when indeed that had not ONLY died of those things but also of severe renal failure and malnutrition.

There was a woman whose starting weight was at 120 kilos and ended up at 42 kilos and this surgeon took no responsibly or showed any remorse. This woman apparently was drifting in and out of consciousness and fighting to survive. Thankfully she made it through but hearing her story was horrific.

The deaths apparently were reported as being extremely “traumatic” with one lady apparently oozing fluids, bleeding from the mouth and bottom, vomiting black bile, orange diarrhoea and her body was basically shutting down and this was just 3 months post surgery.

They then spoke to a woman who had lost a tremendous amount of weight and looked fantabulous who did nothing but praise the surgeon and this type of surgery.

I thought the surgeon was a dickhead, (but that’s just based on a 10 minute interview) I, personally, would not have had this surgery done to myself, I would have “investigated” as best as I could the surgeon (I did that with Mr. Wonderful Surgeon anyway) All I can say is thank God I had the Lap Band Surgery and not this radical, RADICAL surgery.

So having watched this interview I am left feeling that it is sad that people like YOU and ME get to a point in our lives where we become so desperate to lose weight that we will consider surgery and surgery that is as radical as this BPD to be skinny.

People who haven’t had a weight problem in their lives don’t quite understand the anxiety, the desperation, and the hopelessness that some of us have gone and still go through. I’ve said it before, a lot of peoples mentality is “stop eating and do some exercise” FUCK I wish it could have been that easy for me. It sadly wasn’t.

I also thought about the fact that I could relate to these women. I say that, as I am sure that they, just like me have tried every imaginable diet, every fad, every potion, every pill, even exercising like a maniac only to fail

We all want to be thin and healthy and to look great but sometimes and especially after seeing this interview it makes me say out aloud “Is it all really worth it?”

I end today’s entry by saying that I hope that our Lap Band Surgery is not tarnished or included or related to this radical surgery. What we have had done is something completely different. COMPLETELY! Its hard enough trying to get peoples heads around the lap band as it is.


Reney