Day 87- Sunday boring Sunday!!!

My weekend was a tad on the boring side; okay who am I trying to fool? It was fucking boring but deep down I’m rather glad it went the way it did. As I have mentioned like a dozen times I have spent the entire weekend cleaning. But I also caught up on so much reading, which is really my favorite thing to do.

I am a weird soul, part of me loves being around people and I love doing different and exciting stuff and being on the go, go, go but the other half of me likes nothing better than spending quality alone ME time. We talked about this yesterday with my bestie V. She knows me and knows when I need me time and I just disappear off the face of the planet for a few days. I don’t know why I do this I just do it and its just who I am. I’ve always been like this and I even remember being as young as 9 and enjoying playing by myself. (My long term memory is awesome it’s the short term that’s fucked up) You know I almost feel like it’s a chance for me to re-charge my energy levels. I guess I an going through this alone ME time this weekend. My mum says that I give so much of myself to everyone hence why I need alone time. I think she may be right.

It was nice hanging with my Elvis and vegging out on my sofa reading books. Being in my own private box, meaning my house, and not giving a shit on what was going on outside my box (tut tut we aren’t talking about my vagina).

Do you remember how I mentioned on my blog entry Day 83– Non stop, I spoke about a girl called “Bee” who had her surgery on Wednesday and I went to visit her. Well last night we got to speak on the phone for the first time and you know what’s really weird? Her voice is exactly how I thought she would sound. We chatted for a while and we both sounded like some Mutual Admiration Society with all the nice things we had to say about each other. Deep down I was a tad worried about her when I went in to see her at hospital she looked BAD. It was a relief to hear that all went okay and she is on the road to becoming a skinny bitch. I’m so proud of her. Hey Bee you rock man!!

I guess food wise the only real weird thing I experienced was that I am trying to force myself to start drinking some soymilk at least once a week. Eating soy products have not caused me any dilemma whatsoever yet today I had a soy chai latte and it all went down fine and I sipped it slowly not because I had to but because I love enjoying flavors as I had forgotten what food and drink actually tasted like. Half an hour later I noticed that I started having a pretty bad stomach ache. It almost felt like I had eaten an 8-course meal or something, actually it was heaviness in my gut rather than an ache. Has anybody else experienced this? Could soymilk affect the lapband? I tried googling but came up with zilch.

Well, each and every Sunday night I like to sit back and reflect about the week that’s just passed. What did I learn? What did I achieve? It’s been a good week for me and one that I am grateful to have had. Each and every day is so worthwhile, and I’m glad to be alive. I think for the past 10 years I think I seriously wished I were dead on average once a day. Now I am so happy. Deliriously happy. This week has been another great week and I hope that my up and coming week is going to be just as good. So as corny as this is going to sound I wish that each and every one of you have a motherfucking awesome week!!!


Reney