Day 56 - Miss Exhaustion has arrived on my door step once again.

I am exhausted beyond belief. Work was not overtly busy but sleep just did not come visiting last night. In fact I got up and changed my pyjamas twice, swapped pillows, put my bite splint in and out of my mouth (SHUDDUP!!!! I know where some of you may be going with this) I then went into the front room but still no sleep. Fuck I hate nights like last night. I tossed and turned until 3.ooam and then I ended up crashing on my sofa until 4.30 this morning with Elvis wrapped in my arms and the soft hum of the TV as company. If Elvis hadn’t stirred in his sleep I think I may have just still been passed out on the sofa.

I awoke feeling really thirsty and drank 3 glasses of water (very slowly) and then climbed into bed. I usually sleep on my face but I was so exhausted that sleep came almost immediately and I awoke at 6.00am on my side. I had a weird dream that had Tibetan Monks dancing in circles around me chanting whilst I was bashing this huge drum wearing nothing but an orange bikini. It was definitely a weird dream. I had read somewhere that we dream weird dreams when we are dehydrated. Don’t know if that’s true but I may just research that. I also remember reading an interview with Marilyn Manson who said that if you want to dream weird dreams and nightmares you should eat/drink dairy just before you go to bed. I will shut up with all this …it must be very boring reading my rants.

So, due to my lack of sleep and feeling so exhausted I got a bit over excited and silly at lunchtime. I have a tendency of being rather silly when I am tired. I play up a lot. So we sat down to lunch (Moroccan Chickpea Salad for me) when I went to youtube.com to check out any new videos by Henry Rollins. Lo and behold there was a few newies up there and there was Henry singing with The Ruts - West One (Shine on me) I flipped out. No, dead set, I flipped out. I went nuts. PLEASE go to youtube.com, type in Henry Rollins and look for this vid. Its awesome and I lurve this song. I then calmed myself down after watching it because if I kept going I was more than likely going to urinate in my knickers then and there from sheer excitement. So I "Googled” Henry some more and then let me really paint a picture of what the next ½ hour of our lunch was like:

Sue to my right, my laptop in front of me and me (Reney) drooling, moaning, and groaning in sheer ecstasy over Henry Rollins pictures, videos and the size of his thighs.

Sue: You gotta get over him
Reney: I cant, I just cant, how do you get over an addiction?
Sue: Put on a patch
Reney & Sue: hahahahahahahahahahahahaahaaaaaaaaaaaaa

My boss is sitting to her right looking through dental magazines and trying to get Sue’s attention about some diseased mouth he was admiring.

Reney: Don’t listen and look at his stuff, come over and look at some more Henry Rollins…ohhhhh come on…look
Sue: I will fucking kill Henry Rollins myself if you don’t shut up, No! No! I wont because then you will be mourning and it will be worse

Reney& Sue: hahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaa

I do this to poor Sue and Andrew each and every Thursday. You would think that by now they:
(a) Never fall for it again
(b) Tell me to shut the hell up
(c) Ignore me
But noooooooo, each and every Thursday I drive them NUTS..If its not about Henry Rollins then its about the size of a mans dick, or about a book I’m reading, or anything to just drive them nuts. Hee hee

Anyways…I finally got home, picked Elvis up from The Crèche (my parents house) and sat down to oatmeal for dinner (my new addiction) and channel surfed until I came across The Wickedly Handsome Mr Samuel L Jackson on Parkinson (Foxtel- UK TV Channel)

How sexy is Samuel L Jackson? The interview was amazing and it surprised me to see that somebody so successful can be so raw and honest. He spoke so openly and candidly about this alcohol and drug addiction. Man it blew me away. He spoke about how he drank and smoked marijuana like there was no tomorrow, that when he bought a slab of beer he would drink the whole thing and how he had absolutely no self control and how he believed he had no “moderation switch”. He explains how the addictions we have are a chemical imbalance in our heads. He talked about transforming his addiction now to making movies and playing golf. The guy was just amazing, very intelligent and very sharp. Very funny.

It also left me thinking, what Samuel L Jackson said, does that not apply to me as well? If I had a “moderation switch” would I have had to have had this surgery? Not that I regret this surgery as I don’t. But what would have my life been like if I could control my "Moderation switch?"

I think he is hot and I can just imagine him saying:

“Woman get your fat arse over here and come and sit in my mother fucking lap”

OOOOOhhhhhh la la la. Meow, Purr, Cha Cha Cha!!!

Reney

P.S Thanks Vicki J for your call tonight, it was great hearing your voice and thanks for listening and all the laughs. Can't wait to catch up next week.