Day 41 – The day after my first fill.

I cried for the majority of last night out of sheer frustration. Why was Reney frustrated? Well I don’t know. All I can say is that I am frustrated, annoyed, irritated and I want to start cracking heads open.

I know that I was pretty upset that I ran into Satanic Bitch at The Bariatric Centre, but my parents put it into perspective for me. My dad was awesome and I love my dad so much. Dad gave me a “pep” talk and told me to not worry about Satanic Bitch and just motivated me heaps.

Anyways, I sat up in bed and bawled and cried for a good 3 hours I had John Coltrane playing in the background, well okay I had the same Coltrane song playing over and over again (In a Sentimental Mood). It’s such a mad song. Then it hit me, my neck & back are out.

Whenever my neck and back are out I get all cranky and irritable and very teary. I haven’t seen my osteopath for over 2 months…ahhhhhh so all I need is a crack over here, a snap over there, a click just about here and I will be feeling much better.

So hows it all going first day after my fill? Well its really weird. A good weird though. Last night I ate nothing just kept my fluids up and I was very thirsty and obviously dehydrated.

In between crying I had the gurgles and they were DECIBEL loud. I think sleep came at about 2.ooam –ish.

This morning I woke up actually feeling hungry. I grabbed and Up and Go from the fridge and sipped on it whilst I did my hair and makeup. I have 4 sips and I mean tiny sips and it was over red rover. I was full as a goog. I sipped on water and Rooibos Red tea throughout the morning and lunchtime was a struggle. It took me close to an hour to eat ½ cup of pumpkin soup.

I do feel a slight “tightness” in my chest wall and swallowing (tut tut, you dirty birds) feels normal. I am drinking quite a bit of water. I feel great. Really great (except for my neck and back) My stomach/lap band just feel normal.

Work was busy and I was lucky enough to do some dental nursing with my boss Andrew this afternoon. It was good fun as it breaks the monotony and routine of doing front desk duties.

I finished work early and raced to JB Hi-Fi, as I needed to buy a CD by one of my favourite bands The Damned. (Gotta love JB Hi-Fi they have such cheap cd’s) This cd got me through my final year of high school.

I’ve come home and just spent 45 minutes trying to eat my chicken noodle soup. No appetite whatsoever. I had 5 tablespoons of it and that was MORE than enough. I usually aim to eat for only 20 minutes but this evening I was eating so slowly that I pushed it to 45 minutes.

I am not exercising tonight, as I am really sore. I know I should be pushing myself a lot more but I don’t want to injure myself. In response to the lovely Vettie, yes I ran for 32 minutes straight and its funny you suggest that I do a fun run because that’s exactly where I want to get to. I have a lot of training to do to get to a fun-run or to a marathon standard but ONE-day and one day soon I will do it. You know what's funny is that I was sort of becoming delirious whilst running last night. It was rather strange.

I was wondering if it is advisable to be placing some protein powder in my meals? I am not allowed to have protein shakes in between my meals so I am a little perplexed as to what I should do. Can anyone advise me?

Reney