Waiting for my surgery date

Waiting for my surgery date. I had a 7-week wait until my impending surgery. I was anxious, excited, antsy and so eager for it to all happen. My family and co-workers inundated me with questions, questions, questions and to be frank I was so tired of answering their questions and trying to explain things.

I’m sure I am coming across as a sour cow but the more I discussed the impending procedure the more nervous I was becoming.

My surgeon had told me that there were a couple of things that I would not be able to eat and drink again and they were: coke, red meat, fresh soft bread and sushi. So in the first couple of weeks I ate a lot of sushi and fresh bread with abandonment. I figured “Enjoyed it all now Reney because soon you wont be able to eat them again”. I also ate with wild fervour I ate anything and everything and I was eating about 8 meals a day. I would be full from eating junk but I could just not control myself. I was eating anything and everything that was in front of me. You know, I gotta say, it was great eating like that. Hahahahaha. I must say that I admire those people who have a fast metabolism!!!

Now I am sure that you are all tut-tutting me, being overweight is not a good thing but eating food for me, was such a wonderful pleasurable thing. I once had a conversation with a chef who said that he lived to eat not eat to live as long as it was all in moderation. I guess he had a point.

I decided one day that I would go shopping and buy myself a casual outfit that definitely would not fit now but in time would. I shopped around and found my dream pair of denim jeans. I was always admiring people who wore this style of jean and had fantasized about wearing a pair. But what size to buy? Well in jeans I presently wear a size 18-20 so I thought about being realistic. If I purchased a size 8 denim jeans then I would have to give them away to charity, as they would never ever fit. So I went and purchased a pair of size 14 jeans.

I have these jeans now hanging off my wardrobe door and they are the first and last things I look at each and every day. There were days when I was feeling down and blue and just one look at these jeans would leave me with a huge smile spread across my face.

And then...I was instructed to start the Optifast diet.


Reney