Day 35 - Thank You!!!

I’m now 35 days post surgery and man do I feel great. I am losing weight. I’m eating very little yet feeling satisfied. I’m exercising heaps and I have the energy of a teenager.

I got on the Internet and checked my emails and I have to say a BIG thank you to everyone who has been emailing me, and also leaving messages on my blog. I really appreciate it and it makes me feel very, very special.

Today alone there were 7 very long emails from people who have been reading my blog and I am seriously very touched with all your kind words of encouragement and pumping my ever so small ego into a huge massive sized ego.

One email I found extremely interesting from a person called “Beni Blue” who asked me if I ever regretted having the lap band and all I can say Beni Blue is that it is the BEST decision that I ever made.

I think back to how sad and depressed I used to be before my surgery and how defeated and pissed off at the world I used to be, I also used to hate myself so much and in a span of 5 weeks I am slowly finding myself again and loving the me that I had suppressed for such a long time.

I haven’t lost a lot of weigh yet and I know I have a big battle ahead of me, but that’s okay, it’s all good. Is it easy losing weight? Well no not particularly; but the tool that is inside me just makes things a little easier. Its also a constant reminder to me when I look at my scars on my abdomen that in the PAST I let my emotions get the better of me and my comfort eating made me a very overweight unhappy human being. That sorta jerks me off. I get angry with myself because I let things get to me instead of being the hard arse I always was. Does that make sense?

At least now I tell myself daily “Reney that was in your past, remember it, feel it, but don’t ever go back to it” and I have an amazing future ahead of me and that is an awesome feeling to look forward to.

This is the happiest I have ever been and my photos for this blog entry prove it! (Elvis & I wrestling on my bed)

BIG Love to you all and thank you!!!

Reney

P.S To my work colleagues Andrew and Sue, I just wanted to say that I hope I didn’t drive you too crazy with making you watch the snippets of Henry Rollins Spoken Word during your lunch break. They don’t call me the pest for nothin’
Love yas!!!

P.P.S- My email addy for those who want to chat: thereanster@yahoo.com.au