Day 33 – Does it look like I have lost my sense of humour?

So how do ya like my photos?

Ever since I have had my surgery a lot of friends and family have all made the same comment to me, and that comment is “I hope your personality doesn’t change once you lose all that weight” The first time I heard a friend say that I got a bit defensive and I sort of stumbled around trying to find the right words to retaliate.

You know it got me thinking. Would my personalty change? I have always been the clown and the joker. I would do anything to make people laugh. A lot of people have thought that my humour was a way to cover up my fatness. You know the fat chick is always the funny chick. But I’ve tried to delve deep within to analyse if my motive for my humour is to detract from my fatness. I don’t think it is. I genuinely believe that I love to make people laugh.

I’ve always been a bitch. There is no point in deny it. I am confrontational and in your face and I do not fear anyone or anything (maybe just spiders and snakes) I have been raised to be assertive and say it how it is. In my youth I was “VERY” in your face, as I got older and fatter I found myself to be still confrontational but I started to hold back a bit and started to internalise things. If I didn’t like you very much then I would be a bitch and say it like it was. I don’t want to lose my bitchiness. I'd rather die than lose her, she is my best friend.

Then a few days ago my brother and I had an argument (nothing unusual there) via email (if I could have I would have the picked the phone up and gone off my tits at him but we were both at work) and he said this: "when they stitched up your stomach, did they take out your sense of humour too?"

I could not believe that he of all people would say that to me. I’m pretty sure it was said partly in jest and partly in anger towards me but it seriously got me thinking. Have I? Or am I becoming an obnoxious, pompous, pretentious shit head? Have I lost my sense of humour? Crap! This cant be happening! Can it?

So the above photos are for all my friends and family who may be under the impression that my humour has left. It hasn’t. So there!! I can still take the piss out of myself.

To end today’s entry I want to thank two special people who left me posts. The first is to Maree for explaining the importance of weight training. I HATE doing weights with a passion but everything you said is true. I have to grin and bear it and just do it. The other is to Vettie. Vettie thank you so much for your lovely comments. I was really chuffed. You aint wrong about running. I’m becoming a little addicted. I am starting to love the sting and pain of running

I leave you with this:


If I had no sense of humor, I would long ago have committed suicide.
Mohandas (Mahatma)Gandhi

Reney